Thursday, February 21, 2019


Wow it has been a long time since I blogged!

Lots of cool things in life....
I got my dream job back in September at Amazon Web Services as a Technical Account Manager.  Hard work and a much bigger challenge than I realized, totally worth it.

Physically:
225 pounds
Top: L or XL
Bottoms: 14 or 16 ladies, not plus
Bra: 38DDD

When I focused on my emotional health, the weight loss came along. I did have some medical help, by way of medication.  I have taken medication before but did not focus on my emotional health and the weight came off.

February 2017 I was back to 335 lbs, just broke it off with a boyfriend.
My doctor prescribed me  Phentermine and a low dose of Topamax.
2 months ago, I tapered myself off of both drugs.
I have maintained my weight at 225 lbs since - 2 months so far.

I am not sure if I want to lose more weight right now or pursue my dream of being a Plus Size Model.  I am only 5'6" and most Plus Size Models are 5'8" or taller. 

My rules around food are as follows:
1. Listen to my body and give it what it needs
2. Eat ethically grown/sourced food when possible
3. I can eat out anytime I want, if I plan the meal with a friend

I have never let myself live without strict rules and self hatred when the rules were broken.  Now I try to pay attention to how decadent a dessert is and truly me in the moment. 








Saturday, June 28, 2014

What I Have Been Eating

***I have already received criticism about my plan from people and it does effect me emotionally.  I ask that you keep criticism about my diet to yourself, I really do not want to emotionally deal with negativity about what I ate.  I am hesitant to share my menu for fear of this.  Please know that this is what worked for me and it may or may not work for you.  We each have different metabolisms and handle carbs and fat differently.***

Happy Saturday!
I was asked by several people to put together a menu of how I ate for the past 10 days to lose 20 lbs.  I went ahead included 11 days.  Let me say that when I started I had been trying to due the Medifast diet which is very low calorie, moderate carb and low fat.  This was a bit of a transition period towards low carb and high fat.  Please do not take this as suggestions of what you should eat, only record of what I ate.  I was not perfect by any means and made mistakes with food.

My goal is to have a max of 1800 calories with 20% carbs, 30% protein and 50% fat.  Some days I did horrible and some says I did great.  I am averaging pretty close, as you can see below in the averages for the 11 days.

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Friday, June 27, 2014

20 lbs lost in 10 days on low carb high fat diet!

I have been healthy eating and mainly following a low carb diet since 6/17. Update! I have lost 20 lbs! Here is my first progress photo. When I bought this dress it was too snug and I wore a tank over it. Now it fits perfect!  Not bad for 10 days eating low carb!!  My macronutrients are targeted to 20% carbs, 30% protein and 50% fat.

20 lbs lost in 10 days!

And here is the recent advice from my wellness coach:

Always remember though, "Eat to live, not live to eat". Food is only here to sustain us and the fact that you really enjoy food means the 12 conglomerates that own every food company in the country have put one over on you and you are reacting exactly the way they want you to react; with addiction and withdrawal. These companies don't care about you, they only care about their bottom line and the best way to make money is to put in all sorts of crap like MSG and sugars to keep you buying more. They don't expect people to wake up and realize they are victims.
You are not a victim though, and I say that calmly and confidently. These food companies have turned your own taste buds against you, but your body belongs to you and you can simply just take it back! Like any other addiction, junk food has withdrawal symptoms but they are only temporary. If you make it through then your body will know better than to waste your time craving things it knows you're not going to give it.
I do have to also say that I was very proud of myself.  I was in a meeting at work and I passed on the soda, cookies and fruit.  This is what I ate:

Here is my favorite new recipe!

Bulletproof Latte

2 scoops Biochem Vanilla Whey Protein
1 TB Coconut Oil
1 tsp organic grassfed butter
Sprinkle of cinnamon
10 oz of hot coffee

Blend together in blender and enjoy!
275 cal, 6 g carbs, 25 g fat, 20 g protein